No longer angsty. I'm over my angst, wonderfully. ^____^ I just hope it lasts.
Talked to Favian. A lot, yesterday. He's really a great friend. I adore him, and I have to say...
YES, I'M FINALLY OVER HIM.
Keee! ^.^ It's great. It's not that I lack total attraction to him; that's the basis of a lot of my friendships, an underlying, very dormant attraction...hey, when all of your friends are bi or male, that kinda happens. o.o;;
It's great, we're open with each other again, he's considerate of me again, he has a boyfriend who he wants me to meeeeeet. I guess he and I are just really better like this, as friends, rather than as a couple-y thing.
He's so cute. I'm not really gushing over him here, for once, or angsting. I just feel great that I'm friends with him again and it's under control.
Somewhat apparent issue: He likes guys. But the real issue is he doesn't know if he likes girls at all. Just me. There always has been and will be me, and he's dated girls before, it's just that he never really liked any of them. I feel kinda special for it. (He said he didn't know if I was just an exception or all the other girls just sucked. Yay, I don't suck!) But, anyone else notice I don't ever attract straight people. o.o;;; Steve said something on that using his magic SteveLogic (magic and logic--whaaa?) a while ago that makes me feel better on that topic, but I don't feel like going through my massive new IM log folder (93 items, yo!) and quoting him.
Stayed up late. I was supposed to go to bed at 11, and stayed up until 12:25-ish on the phone with Favian. We're insane and cute together. ^^; But I don't mean cute in a couple-y way, just that watching us interact is cute. It's really great having a friend like him. Not that I think we're dangerously close best friends again yet, but we're close. ::smiles:: Yay!
Okay, here's some freaky news.
The other night I couldn't sleep...and started hearing voices. I always hear this male voice chanting something in some other language to me. The same guy. It's happened to me several times before. This same wrinkly old asian guy, I picture him. Anyway, I was starting to get entranced by it, but I remembered that book "A Wrinkle In TIme," (great book, BTW), and started singing songs irregularly to avoid falling into the trance. XD I just think it's so bizzare the things I learn from books, but rather nifty. o.o; I should figure that voice out, too, shouldn't I? I've heard it before...but it creeps me out. I put on music as I fell asleep to keep him away. ;p